Thursday, June 09, 2005

i don wan to be like tis... @ 6:55:00 PM

Listening to B.A.D - Wo De Cuo
its over... all over... flooded de whole bed... new record seh... haix... my bro got a shock when i suddenly hugged him and cried last nite... was tokin on phone wit michelle at de same time... nv noe i'll break down like tis... it feels terrible... i'm really shagg...

today woke up... gabriel sick... pei my mum go bring gab see doc... morning only drank a cup of iced milo... den went home wait for my dad to come drive us to toa payoh... reach toa payoh i went to buy jolly shandy drink... donno why i jus feel like drinkin it... and ate a piece of bread... went to PS meet shoon... feel like huggin her when i saw her... but... scared later she scold mi stoopid cryin for him again... so i hold back my tears... pei her ate her lunch... walk walk awhile den take MRT back to hougang... i went compass point meet michelle.. she wanna come my house change her MP3 songs again... de min i saw her... de every min i saw her... my tears jus roll down straight... i was damn weak in front of her... donno why... she's de only one who noe mi best... i hate her when she keep repeatin Yu Heng's yi ran shi peng you on de bus gib mi listen... i jus cannot control my tears when i hear tat song... haix... i hate myself keep wanna act strong still in front of michelle... she actually wanted to lend mi her shoulders but i reject... i think tat i should not rely on anyone liao... after she left... i started to zi bi... den... i called michelle... de every min i heard her voice... i started floodin my pillow again... she ask mi to cry until no more tears will roll down my cheeks again... she say this is de every last time i'm gonna cry for him... but... i donno... haix...

i cry... becox i think this is my way of lettin go... becox i only noe how to cry... hate myself bein so stoopid and naive... haix...

*i really need time...

Thursday, June 09, 2005

i don wan to be like tis... @ 6:55:00 PM

Listening to B.A.D - Wo De Cuo
its over... all over... flooded de whole bed... new record seh... haix... my bro got a shock when i suddenly hugged him and cried last nite... was tokin on phone wit michelle at de same time... nv noe i'll break down like tis... it feels terrible... i'm really shagg...

today woke up... gabriel sick... pei my mum go bring gab see doc... morning only drank a cup of iced milo... den went home wait for my dad to come drive us to toa payoh... reach toa payoh i went to buy jolly shandy drink... donno why i jus feel like drinkin it... and ate a piece of bread... went to PS meet shoon... feel like huggin her when i saw her... but... scared later she scold mi stoopid cryin for him again... so i hold back my tears... pei her ate her lunch... walk walk awhile den take MRT back to hougang... i went compass point meet michelle.. she wanna come my house change her MP3 songs again... de min i saw her... de every min i saw her... my tears jus roll down straight... i was damn weak in front of her... donno why... she's de only one who noe mi best... i hate her when she keep repeatin Yu Heng's yi ran shi peng you on de bus gib mi listen... i jus cannot control my tears when i hear tat song... haix... i hate myself keep wanna act strong still in front of michelle... she actually wanted to lend mi her shoulders but i reject... i think tat i should not rely on anyone liao... after she left... i started to zi bi... den... i called michelle... de every min i heard her voice... i started floodin my pillow again... she ask mi to cry until no more tears will roll down my cheeks again... she say this is de every last time i'm gonna cry for him... but... i donno... haix...

i cry... becox i think this is my way of lettin go... becox i only noe how to cry... hate myself bein so stoopid and naive... haix...

*i really need time...